Some stuff!

So, Best Buy coughed up the 'no lemons' replacement laptop...its a fancy new Toshiba! YAY!

I, am still jobless....I think I might have a job back 'home' with Ashley Manor. Still waiting to hear from the man in charge regarding moola. I was very confident...but, as time goes on my confidence wavers...right now its wavering so much I think I might be have acquired jobless-girl-Parkinson's disease (thats funny, just laugh)....I have another offer...a good offer, but I have to answer them by the end of today...I am holding out for Ashley Manor, as that is where I'd rather go...but, I guess I will have to hop onto the next ship if this one passes by. It makes me sad, I'd really like to be a part of the exciting 'stuff' coming that way, and surround myself with familiar friendly people who know me...I guess we all gotta do what we gotta do...the good news is I have options! I can't keep waiting for AM...so everyone cross your fingers and say a prayer. I better go do somthing productive with my time 'off'.

Light

I have been working for Heart 'n Home Hospice for the past year and some odd months. It was a decent job, but my office was full of amazing people! Minda, Windy, Erin, Velana, Brenda, Linda, and the list goes on! I loved my office, but the corporate portion was a little...a little....well it was a little like any corporate office that is family ran and operated. They have grown quickly and seen much success....so, they have made changes, and hired consultants, and read books, and done all sorts of stuff to keep up with their growth...yet, when its all said and done, really whats happened is HnH is 'they are too big for their britches'....I could have, and should have done a few things differently, but when your heart isn't in it, and your head isn't either it makes for a rough go. I was micromanaged in ways you can't even begin to imagine! I am one of those people who thrives with independence. Tell me what my job is and then leave me the hell alone and let me do my job....right? It is funny to me, when they were asking me why I would consider leaving Ashley Manor I told them it was directly related to the micro-managing of the idiot they hired to run the marketing department. I told them how I was a product of my environment and how if my environment was a happy place I could produce like no other. Then what happens? They start micro-managing the outreach department in ways I didn't even know existed, then it was literally a chronic, phlemy cough of negative feedback, and harsh criticism. The homeostasis of my biodome was on a fast race down hill. To top ALL of that off, they wanted me to sign an 'non-compete' contract. A contract stating regardless of how my time at HnH ended I would not be permitted to work in hospice in anyway for 12 months. WHAT! Yeah, thats what I said. So I didn't sign it. Then, when faced with a 'get fired or resign' situation, I resigned. I had wanted to quit for weeks, but loved my office, and needed the job. Ya know? But when it came down to it, I resigned. I have never been in a situation like that in my life. I have never been in a situation when I truly believed I would be fired. I have never worked anywhere they wanted to fire me..........................it was time, and it was the right thing to do! I am relieved to eliminate the stress, and chaos, and constant, consistent pressure and critisism. I am sad, so sad to not have the wonderful people in my office I came to love as a part of my daily life.

God will lead me to what is next, and it will be where I suppose to be, of this I have no doubts! God has always lit my path...

We will call this OCTOBER

Well friends, I was without my handy dandy laptop for most of the month of October...I withstood Facebook withdrawls and not posting pictures. It was rough, I'll admit, but I came through like a trooper!

So, I returned to work after my 'minor outpatient' shoudler surgery. Where I had a 'talk' with my 'trainer/mentor' in hopes of improving a seriously lacking relationship in order to improve my 'working environment'....and I'll say this...it was great for a couple of weeks!! But, well...ya know! While it is still less than ideal it is definitely better. I say a little prayer before work starts, and then pray repetitively through the course of my day. The good news is my beloved Carrie Hawkins is now officially a Caldwell HnH social worker! This means I get to see Care every Tuesday at minimum!! Fun for me! She is a gem, and I am so glad to count her as part of a super duper team of wonderful caring nurses, social workers, chaplains, CNA's, Windy and ME!! I sure hope hospice agrees with the lovely Mrs. Hawkins!

What else...Derek turned SEVEN...much to his mother's dismay! How in the world did THAT happen? MY BABY??? IS SEVEN??? I don't believe it...I refuse...(not that denying the fact makes it less that true...) He is a big old first grader, with a perfect report card, and a skateboard!! AND OH, does he love that skateboard!! He sure took to it like peanuts to M&M's! He learned to 'ollie' whatever that means!!! He watches every episode of 'Zeke and Luther' (those of you without Disney Channel aged kiddos or Disney Channel...this is a show about two goofy skateboarders...) So, far the most entertaining thing so far was my son skateboarding in a pair of Wranglers...

We also celebrated my baby brothers 29th birthday at the river like we do every year. Only this year Tim McNarie a.k.a. Uncle Tim joined us! We went to the river and released balloons laden with a Chili Pepper, tossed flowers into the river, and shared many a bittersweet memory...

Tim's story was about Derek's lack of fear, Willie's about Derek's tendency to go shirtless, Daddy shared a hunting story, I shared a story about the Rodeo Club Homecoming parade float, and there were many others shared this day. The day my brother was born, a good day....ALWAYS a GOOD DAY!

And, then there was the "Favorite Aunt Sharla Slumber Party''!!! I had Shyann, Dakota, Eli, and Ian, and Kyla, and Derek all spend the night one night!! TONS OF FUN!! We ate, and watched movies, and Ian and I stayed up all night!! AND I DO MEAN ALL NIGHT!! Turns out, sometimes 2 year olds don't sleep so well in places they don't usually sleep...Turns out, Aunt Sharla didn't remember this....Turns out Aunt Sharla loves her nephew, but doesn't miss sleepless nights!! We had cinnamon rolls for breakfast, and then Lennie and Justin picked up the boys, and my kids and the girls went to church....THEN we came home, and all got ready for Trunk or Treat at the church later that night!!

Trunk or Treat!! Kyla, Dakota, and Shyann were all little old ladies for Halloween, and Derek was a very authentic BullFighter! I set the ladies up assembly line style and turned them into Miss Pennsylvania 1929, Miss Florida 1940, and Miss Munchkin Land 1911!! While Uncle Tim the REAL BULLFIGHTER came over and transformed my little boy into a bullfighter from cowboy hat to cleats!! All FOUR kids won Most Original in their age groups! I think someone should have given me an award since they were my ideas!! But apparently that isn't how it works!

And we wrapped the month up with Kyla getting her braces OFF, and a retainer I can't get her to LEAVE in her mouth....

Busy busy!!

May God Bless each of you has he has this family! With Love, Happiness, Safety, Health, and Faith!